Sunday, March 4, 2007

"An admirer is too shy to meet you."

I tagged along with Loquatia to dinner today, and ate with her and the CI kids. They're all really nice, but I have to say, I wasn't really expecting them to say grace... in a dining hall...

And I really wasn't expecting Loquatia to ask me if it was okay. What, was she expecting I'd flip out and get terribly insulted? It's grace. I bowed my head and waited while the girl asked that everyone be able to finish their homework tonight, "especially those of us who have essays due tomorrow morning, Lord."

Besides, I'm a theist, I can say grace just as well as anyone else and all I have to do to a Christian grace is think "god" instead of "lord" or "Jesus."

The dinner was okay, though I was quiet the whole meal on account of not really knowing any of them except Loquatia and Comisa. The solemn tone at the beginning quickly devolved into biting the heads or bottoms off of gummy bears and making them into multicolor mutants.

Ah, college students.


That was going to be my only story today, besides the Picard video you are all required to watch below (seriously, I joined YouTube just to show you this, so watch it), but I was talking to Writer Guy and the subject of self-esteem-- specifically, mine-- came up. I tried to explain in the best possible way that I've struggled with it for a long time, but I know I have a problem with it and I'm trying to work on it. As in, I tried to explain it in a way that didn't make me seem needy or like I was fishing for compliments (I never fish for compliments, at least not intentionally. I assume those aren't actually compliments, but rather attempts to make me feel better, and thus can be ignored). I think I was successful. I hope so, anyway.

But the important/interesting part was that he told me if he could ever help in that regard, I should let him know, so I was able to inform him that he didn't really need to make any special effort, he's managed to help improve my self-esteem already.

I may have a default setting with the self-esteem of an old grapefruit (they have body image problems, didn't you know?), but at least it improves drastically at the slightest provocation...

My Love Element Is Earth

In love, I have consistency and integrity.
For me, love is all about staying grounded and centered.

I attract others with my zest for life and experiences.
My flirting style is defined by setting the scene, creating a unique moment in time.

Steady progress and stability are the cornerstones of my love life.
I may take things too slowly, but I never put my heart at risk.

I connect best with: Fire

I should avoid: Wood

Me and another Earth element: need each other too much to build a good foundation.


Anonymous said...

Hopefully your admirer will be too shy to do what Picard did in that video! Yeesh! That was a BIT over the top...

Basiorana said...

Still, you have to admit... priceless.